Go, run away, fly away
Go, run away, fly away ... God yes ... anything to hide, hide anywhere, fall into a dark void without sound, voice, movement, touch, without emotions, feelings ... if only away, away from all living things speaking. Being alone in silence ... I do not feel, do not open eyes, undead, finally, do not breathe the filthy air, saturated with lies and hypocrisy. Hear the decrees, reproaches, nothing. Do not hear his heart beats, feel the blood pulsing in his veins, nothing .... Then, far away from family and loved ones of all mankind ... And the most important thing from her. From her that I loved for many years, I lived for it, prayed for it, and kissed her in the morning ... And she does not understand ...... And I can not ...... I can not just her I love ... I just can not all .... Oh, my God is better to die, but did not cause her pain, because it is not in it. She had not lied to me not deceived has not changed ... no it's just me ... but she did not understand ... but I can not ..... my love dies it goes ... goes slowly, day by day it smaller. No, I have no other, and I did not change, but I'm more just can not love ... Around me fear it materializes, a black shadow following me, pushing me to the bad deeds, we quarrel with her because of my stupid to anyone unnecessary delusional thoughts ... but I want to love her with all my heart and soul ... but I can not, that it is in the breakup, my thoughts are confused scatter like cockroaches when the light is turned on, I can not think clearly, everything is mixed .. .I slowly going crazy. Fear walks behind me, I can not sleep, I do not want to see the day, night, it ... anyone ... and she is choking me, it - the fear that it's over, and we remain enemies, and I want to be her friend that she thought of me with warmth in the heart. That is why we need to leave right now, while we still have a bit of good. ... Sorry ... favorite understand ... I want to leave, while maintaining at least a piece of our love ... I'm sorry ... I love you ...